Growing Pains: Fire In My Bones

I did not expect to end my undergraduate career sleeping in my bed, with a belly full of growing pains. This is what outgrowing and moving on looks like: leaving Sodom in flames, without so much as a glance over my shoulder -- lest these old wineskins burst and ruin the new wine. Shaking the dust off my feet. When I was younger and still growing (height-wise), I would have leg aches. It made me want to stretch myself out, to kick something. My current body couldn't contain where I wanted to go, and it made me angry. Once again, my bones are groaning. Here I am, alive and kicking. I am out, restless and angry. Yet, what is this perfect peace that guards my heart?

String Theory

After spending a few years away from the violin (and other instruments in general), I heard God tell me through prayer that He wanted me to return to my craft. Today, I just wanted to share a few clips of the work I have done since I heard that call.

בְּרָכָה (Berakhah)

Lately, for the first time, I've been having thoughts of scrapping my blog. Out of nearly four years worth of writing, do I really believe I have produced anything worthwhile?

An Interlude

Photo by Mae Mu My silence on this platform has been intentional. Maybe the day to share my grief will come sooner than I think. But I do not believe it is today. Abba, Your Spirit groans wordlessly within me. There You go, lifting my load again. You display Your glory within me. Let me …

Making Art: But Is It Waste?

Photo by Christopher Campbell Not long ago, I completed Design Discovery, an intensive architecture summer program at the Harvard Graduate School of Design. On the last day, after commencement, a friend took a video of me merrily destroying a bag full of massing models. It wasn't a cute little tote bag either -- I had …

Come Out! A Story of Deliverance

Photo by Priscilla Du Preez When I woke up on Sunday, I knew this day held great hope for me. Ever since coming out as non-binary and pansexual, the spiritual warfare in my life has been real. By God's grace and provision, I have been just getting by. But I knew that this wasn't all …

COMING OUT: “God, Could You Be This Good?”

Photo by Mike Schrengohst TL;DR - God is real. He loves you. He wants the best for you. No exceptions. I "come out," and into the open: not in spite of my faith, but because of it. But first, a little about me. My name is Gloria. I am a first generation Chinese American, assigned …

Our Daily Bread (#NEDAwareness)

CW: disordered eating, anorexia, relapse, recovery Photo by Mike Kenneally They say that relapse is part of recovery, but I thought my anorexia was a thing of the past. Overcome last year, for good. Until I realized, over the course of several days, that I had begun eating much less than normal. Skipping the first …

WHY Declutter? — Treasures in Heaven

Entropy works against us consistently, creating disorder and chaos. That's the way of the universe now (after the Fall).

Nobody actually wants clutter. We don't set our new year's resolution to live a more cluttered life.

However, if we're not intentional about what we allow to remain in our life, we end up with unintentional objects, relationships, and achievements.

And who wants that? It's human nature to desire a meaningful life.

It's easy to be fooled, though. Worldly possessions can't fill the void within our hearts, which desire and long for more.

Because things are just things -- neither good nor bad. They can make us happy for a while, but that kind of happiness never lasts.

I’m Becoming a Minimalist!

Photo by Jackson Douglas Living well. What does that mean to you? Does it fit a particular aesthetic, income level, or location? Does a good life involve a change in mindset? If so, is it hard to do? Just like every other consumer in America, I've bought into the promise that better life is just a …