A couple of observations, this second weekend of June. On Thursday, I changed my tagline. Big deal, right? "Nothing to offer except my own confusion," to "pleni sunt cæli et terra gloria tua." I felt that the former no longer represented my worth or sense of self. The latter however, is a phrase taken directly … Continue reading Taglines, Sketchbooks, and Records
Lately, I've been feeling a bit discouraged. You see, I started Sun Requiem over two years ago, because I had a great desire to share my inner world with others. But what happened, when I poured out my heart, one post after another, one month after the next? Not much. And that really bothers me, … Continue reading Chosen the Despised
All successful companies and people have mission statements. They have something that drives them onward to accomplish what they do. An internal motivation and integrity which stays constant no matter the mood or situation. Here's mine. During "Family Group" this week, we did an activity for about twenty minutes where we reflected upon the question … Continue reading Realignment: What’s My Why? a Mission Statement
Hooray! If you’re reading this, then it means that my efforts of beginning a blog have begun to take fruit. I have procrastinated creating my website and writing my first posts because frankly, I was scared. Staying where you always have been is so easy. I was scared of what others might think of me spilling a corner of my brain into text on a daily basis. At the same time, I was scared of what would happen if absolutely nobody read it (still a fear of mine) and I was scared that it would be a waste of my time. So. At this stage in my life, I can take advantage of obscurity. I can use my ignorance and naïveté to my benefit. I still think that anything is possible (but not everything - there's a difference) for me. The uncharted waters of knowledge are infinite for me. I can take risks and fail again and again with no reputation to lose. I have no insecurity but my ever-present ego, which is really nothing but self-dictated baggage. Well, five weeks and 46 posts in, I'm thinking, I'm glad I took the first step. Sure, I was stressed during exam week, but the few hours I could find to spare became super valuable for me. It was amazing how productive I could be when I knew that my time was limited. I loved exacting the transfer of a cloudy notion in my head into clear, specific words. I sure didn't know everything about blogging when I created my WordPress account a month ago. Heck, I still don't. But if anything, what I've learned about life is that you can, and sometimes you have to, continue, even if you don't think you have everything figured out at the stage you're at. Your seeker comes to find you whether you're ready or not. Exam weeks come whether you're ready or not. You graduate whether or not you think you're ready for the real world. Accept that you'll have to learn things as you go, otherwise you'll never start. Once that happens there's a certain feeling of peace.
Once in a while my notes look nice. In the spirit of exam week(s) happening all over the world right now, here's some study inspiration.
Sometimes you don't realize how mindlessly you are living - intentionally controlling my right hand led me to intentionally control and live my life. From being mindful of the flavor of my food to noticing my own handwriting and that of others, life was challenging, but also more present.
These are the notes I distilled from the Solo Strings Symposium I attended in Miami a few years back. I hope you find these rules of thumb helpful!
Who’s tiny? Asks the universe Not me! Says infinite
We are not satisfied by too much, but by too little. We are not too greedy, but not greedy enough for the good things in this life.