Lately, I've gathered so much tension in my head, I figured out how to wiggle my ears. (By activating a muscle I didn't know was in my control.) Part of it is a "what if" question. One which seems so big, I can only look to God for answers, help, and hope. Part of it … Continue reading Foundations
I've been spending a lot of my free time excavating my past. We teach our children that certain things are not allowed in society, because of laws and consequences. In my childish mind, I divided people into simple categories, like civilian, police, angel, and villain, and I thought that everything in the world worked out … Continue reading Prison Break
My social media feeds these days are flooded with messages regarding depression and suicidality: it's hard, get help, speak up, reach out. Suddenly, in light of the deaths of Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain, everyone is seeking to understand that same world I was fighting my way out of not too long ago. However, had … Continue reading Measure Your Life
I have always felt comfortable in water. Since some of my earliest memories, I have loved being wet in the bathtub. I have also known how to swim for most of my life. Thus, I have never experienced any fear of water. As a child, I remember swimming over a diving well without fear, because … Continue reading On Near-Drowning
Five days ago, Chris Cornell was posthumously awarded the inaugural 'The Promise' award by the Los Angeles Committee of Human Rights Watch. The Promise award recognizes "an outstanding song, television show, or film that advances the values of equity and justice in an original and powerful way." Chris Cornell was recognized for his song, "The … Continue reading The Promise Inaugural Award Goes to Chris Cornell
Where to even start? The last time I wrote, I wasn't able to silence the thoughts that were telling me to die. I have never wanted that for myself. I have a "rage against the dying of the light" mentality that drives me to seek and create value till my dying breath, which keeps me … Continue reading Put a bit of fixin’ on it!
September 24 A productive week finished, I left our college worship night with an earful of cliches concerning the Christian dilemma of being both needing to be disciplined by God while also being unconditionally loved by Him as His adopted child. I lay on my bed, teeth brushed and naked, and found no inclination to … Continue reading I know, it’s been comin’.
The only thing that surprises me is that I hadn't grappled with these facts about me sooner. If I could summarize my first semester at college, it would be this: I have anxiety. If I could summarize my second semester at college, it would be this: I have depression. I don't know how I would … Continue reading MIMI: “I’m nineteen, but I’m old for my age…”
Last semester, my schedule could have driven anyone insane. Sometimes, you do just have to learn the hard way. This post will be more personal than what I normally put on my blog, because I typically hide behind the bigger ideas (of what I think and what I learn about society and science and the … Continue reading First Semester College: An Honest Assessment