Stepping Out of the Sun

I've written about depression, about suicidality, about self-harm, about generalized anxiety, about panic disorders, about eating disorders, about insomnia, and about OCD, among other tidbits of my life. It can be a lot. Each one of these topics is a rabbit hole that even I don't know how to navigate, if I get down too …

[Lookbook – 1] Architecture

I prefer visual formats of media over text. As a result, I tend to be quite active on Pinterest and Instagram. Sometimes, it can be difficult to express my visual interests over a platform such as WordPress, which emphasizes written content. In the past, I have done monthly photo diaries to integrate these channels, but I realized the difficulty to …

On Near-Drowning

I have always felt comfortable in water. Since some of my earliest memories, I have loved being wet in the bathtub. I have also known how to swim for most of my life. Thus, I have never experienced any fear of water. As a child, I remember swimming over a diving well without fear, because …

Fresh.

God broke through Monday night. This wasn't a dream. The reality was, that God met us in Ja's room that night. 'Code' names: Mc, Ja, Se, So, Mu Previously, I was in recovery for an eating disorder. Less than a week ago, I was under attack again. Starve! it commanded me, and the urge became …

Cease Fire!

I remind myself that progress isn't linear, but it's hard to believe I'm winning the war when I keep switching sides, so that every battle seems partly lost no matter what. While I haven't fainted in public yet, I've spent much of these past few days half conscious, weak-limbed, and dizzy, either in bed, or …